(please realize I’m writing this as if it is my personal journal)
Waking up was hard again!
I hit dismiss and when I looked back at my phone it was 6:20 am! Yikes that felt lie a minute.
I was excited to go running this morning, I haven’t ran in a little while and today it was nice outside a bit chili and dark, (perhaps I should run a little later when there is light out) regardless it felt nice to be able to run and feel the wind pass me by.
My foot hurts still, running made it worst…but I don’t care I pushed trough the pain.
Ran a mile in 7 min 33 sec.
I ran first so when I get home I can be awake for my workout, however that fail….still sleepy and tired I can totally go back to bed after this run.
The weight felt heavy on my back, I haven’t squat in 2 weeks, but I know I can do more. I’m just so sleepy.
Back squat- 15x75lb, 12x80lb, 10x85lb, 8x90lb
Front squat- 15x50lb, 12×55, 10x60lb, 8x65lb
RDLs- 15x10lb, 12x12lb, 10x25lb, 8xbar alone(45lb)
Front squat SUCKS!
My legs are shaky as heck!
I’m back from dropping Emma of at school and all I want to do is sleep and maybe eat some cereal.
I have so much to do today and I gotta give Seylah her lesson….maybe if I take a little nap…will that help?
I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT FOOD!
I gotta keep busy.
2 eggs omelet with onions, ham, cilantro,and salt.
2 tablespoon of Oatmeal with hot water, cinnamon, chi seeds, and a spoon of almond butter.
I feel like I have wasted hours today!
I’m so sleepy and not 100%. Yeah I spend time with the girls watching a movie, but I feel like a failure already.
Mentally I feel like I’m not capable of all this that I’m about to do.
And I already want to quit.
Boy I don’t have enough grit!
Black coffee SUCKS!
So I added a little half & half container. Being deprived from milk sucks too. I’m hungry but not that hungry. I just want food (the bad kind)
I’m gonna have a spoon full of peanut butter.
WOW is only day one and I realized I’m such a lazy person and I don’t want to put in the hard work. Like I am totally fine with how things are….but I’m not. Is like if I’m fitting with myself today.
But I don’t want to be this way.
So I’m gonna keep moving forward.
3 steps that helped me to overcome this laziness?
- Write about it, just like I’m doing
- Talk about it, to someone who supports you in your new endeavor. For me is my husband.
- Just like Tim Grover says “You don’t gotta love the hard work, just crave the end result” take this mentality and run with it!
Tomorrow is a new day!